A message from an Astrologer

A message from an Astrologer

Whenever I look at the stars in the sky, I think about the tininess of our world. The world with all its emotional content and I think of the meaning of all this mortal things, that we surround ourselves with. The things we value the most have no value, it is just a perspective in a dimension, because at that very time there will be other dimensions and other worlds and there will be others with similar perspective. The stars fill me with deep renunciation, the feeling to find the one who sent me here. Here, where I am doing things, I don’t want to do. I have to handle and touch things like money, have to go through all the feelings and emotions of passing through mortal beings while being aware of the ultimate truth of their death and mortal existence. That all rubbish that surrounds me sometimes appears like a large size graveyard with me sitting alone in it. The aloofness in it gives me peace, because I know that I am not alone. The mortal loneliness is a perspective, for he who has seen him, will never be lonely in any world.

I cannot explain the unlimited time that I often spend alone, talking to self. Those are real movements when I talk to the mahapurusha who threw me to this world, but then It appears like idiotic-ness and is un-understandable to the most of the mortals. Questions keep coming, though there is no feeling of answering them:

“What are doing here alone ?”
Alone, Who is alone in this world. Alone is one who does not understand the truth.
“Are you nuts?, You are just sitting here from past many hours ”
Time is a dimension in this dimension. It is timeless in my world.

Mind you, I am not unhappy but I am not happy as well, this pressing feeling of finding the ultimate sojourn keep pushing me. The time is passing by in this dimension and that is the problem. I have to do all the karmas been assigned to me but I cannot do the karmas with any attachment. People who know me think that I am insensitive and often lack the appetite for social adjustments, but this is what I am with all the intensity of a lonely being. I have created walls of professionalism and snobbishness so that nobody dare see the bare me. The profound power of digital world is a boon, where we can express whatever we want, without getting involved in emotional structure. The words reach the person and they do not reach the person where they are not to be reached.

The truth has created a fearlessness in me, right from the age when children start learning to understand the basics of life. I have seen the dead bodies and the burning piers in graveyard. They never created a fear in me, not even when I was a child. I have that elated feeling of knowing that the truth has nothing to fear about. I have somehow concluded this in childhood that I am not born for this world.

This is a message to those for whom it is meant to be. I am not a ruthless, cruel anti-social soul. I have a heart that beats, but I cannot gel well along with people, for it is earthly and finite. Please understand that I have to do act to be a social being because otherwise my world is very different. I have high sensitivity for poor and deprived, but the maliciousness and wrong intent puts me off. People, who think they are smart, give me a hearty laugh. Their cunningness stinks and I can smell it from miles. So stop acting, like a stupid being and be what you are when you talk to me. I would love to talk to a real you, but then you should be talking about something that I understand. I cannot talk about finite things, because I am very detached to them and that too in an invisible way. Please do not expect me to talk about world, it is difficult for me. My work as an astrologer is my duty towards everyone I work for, but then I cannot keep on talking about your life and emotions because I am not very social that way. I can give a very pin pointed conclusion but then don’t expect a chit chat from my side.
There are many out there who love me and I wanted them to know that I understand their love, respect and affection, but then it is a passing emotion. For those of you, who hate me, this is my message to them, that I love them. Consider me an ordinary person with complete anti-social habits with an infinite and an extraordinary love for God (and nothing else).

A.J