Yes, we derive happiness from sharing and we also feel happy because of unknown…

Yes, we derive happiness from sharing and we also feel happy because of unknown reasons. We also feel happy when we achieve something, we may also feel happy when we help people in suffering. Happiness is an inevitable part of human psyche, as is the gloom. I have been searching the ultimate bliss not just the momentary happiness. The ultimate bliss that never seizes to exist, the bliss that keeps you in that state of madness than you cannot be touched by the tints of anger, hatred, jealousy or unhappiness. That madness that you can see on the faces of Jesus or Mahatama Buddha. The shining bright light on the faces of enlightened ones. That happiness comes from infinite but methodological supreme energy called God by everybody. The source of that energy is the commanding force behind all the complex equations, the source that even quantum physics fails to define, because that “Adi Shakti” cannot be defined in terms of figures. It could though only be felt and understood. That source is needed because I need to feed them to others. I need to channelize on daily basis because this is what I am born for. That infinite undying love for every tattered heart out there. I need that immense imperishable love for everybody, not for anything else but for the meagre sense of good. To be good in these trying times, is one of the most difficult task, I seek energy so that I can adhere to the same. The worst part of being a psychic is that you already perceive the person in his blacks and whites. I need to demolish my own ideas so that I can consider everybody as a mere soul united with me at a deeper level. I sometimes seek isolated atmospheres because I fear the materialistic and fallen souls. I wish I can mute my own visions so they can let me see everybody in a different way. My mind is tailored in a fashion where this machine just starts analysis the minute it hears or meets somebody, so I have to turn it down. I seek mother divine and tell her to freeze my machines and let she be the controlling force.
“Ai kash kuhuda kuch aisa ho jaye,
Main, main na reh sakun bas to hi ho jaye”